Chapter 018 – Violation (NSFW)

Translator: Helliot

Editor: Isalee

His stomach hurt—it hurt so much that it made him curl up. He buried his head into his pillow and let out a muffled grunt. Before he could react, Gu Ze had already grabbed him by the waist.

If Gu Ze still had any hesitation in his eyes just now, then that had all disappeared at this moment. The only thing that filled his eyes now was pure lust.

Yet he managed to free himself a little, getting one of his feet to reach the ground. Meng Fu’s body was shaky, but he hurried to get off the bed.

Gu Ze stopped, watching him with an indiscernible look in his eyes as if he were watching the struggle of prey who couldn’t escape.

This sight even gave rise to a strange feeling inside of him. Taking Meng Fu should have been off-putting, but he was getting aroused. Meng Fu had become the one who was desperate to avoid him whilst Gu Ze began demanding more from him.

Meng Fu’s entire body fell to the ground, landing heavily on his knees with a loud thud. It didn’t take much to know that he must be in pain. Even so, he still had to run. Frowning, he quickly got up and stumbled towards the door.

But after just two steps, his arms were caught from behind, bound tightly behind his back. He couldn’t move his upper body at all. Like a running fugitive, he was dragged back and thrown onto the bed again.

No matter how he struggled, it was just a waste of strength.

“Mr. Gu, Mr. Gu…” Meng Fu tried to plead with his cheek stuck to the pillow. He was scared, very scared. His entire body was shaking, and even his voice trembled terribly.

He realized what was coming, and the blaring warning signs scared him even more than when he stepped into prison for the first time.

Pitifully, he pleaded, “Mr. Gu, don’t do this. I’m a man. Don’t you think it’s disgusting?”

“I do. It disgusts me that I’m fucking a murderer like you.” As he said that, Gu Ze’s hands did not rest. “But what can I do? Compared to saving myself the disgust, I’d much rather watch you suffer.”

A feeling of imminent death suddenly came over him.

This man really was willing to humiliate him like this in order to hurt him. He was willing to do it even if it disgusted him. “Ow, it hurts…” It hurt so much that even his throat felt like it was being cut apart.

“Mr, Gu, please…Stop it, please stop!”

However, his pleading fell on deaf ears.

Gu Ze felt that this man deserved this misery.

Meng Fu’s pleading voice gradually grew quieter and quieter, so much that it became almost inaudible, muffled by the pillow. The pain numbed his nerves. Through gritted teeth, he couldn’t control himself from screaming, but then he tried hard to calm himself and apologize, pleading, “Mr. Gu, I’m sorry. It’s all my fault. What happened to your wife and child is all my fault. You can punish me in different ways, but not like this, please!”

He brought up He Manyu at the most taboo time for Gu Ze. It poked him right where it hurt, intensifying his anger. Gu Ze was riled up. “You deserve this!”

It was true that he deserved it—he caused the deaths of two people. He deserved to be in pain.

He deserved all of this.

Meng Fu stopped pleading. He swallowed all the pain and humiliation silently into himself. He was gritting his teeth, and when he couldn’t take it anymore, he began biting on his pillow.

He thought about all that happened in the past seven years and he suddenly discovered that his life was just like a ridiculous play, and he was the protagonist. Like a broken man, the director pushed him into all sorts of trials and tribulations.

The arms secured behind his back had already grown completely numb. When Gu Ze released himself inside of his body, it was like he had the sudden realization that he’d been raped by Gu Ze. He was raped by a man.

Meng Fu felt helpless and confused. A heavy sadness enveloped him, but there was nothing he could do. He didn’t even have the power to resist.

Gu Ze put his pants back on as if nothing ever happened. Then, he loosened the tie binding Meng Fu’s arms.

He watched Meng Fu resting there, silent as if his soul had been drained away, lying limp on the bed. The side of his face was buried into the pillow, and his expression seemed like it was hidden beneath a veil, hazy and unclear.

Gu Ze casually threw the wrinkled tie on the floor before standing up, saying to the man unmoving on the bed, “Why aren’t you talking anymore? That was your first time, wasn’t it? Being done by a man must have been humiliating, huh?”

Meng Fu’s still eyes suddenly flickered at those words as if he’d been provoked, but it quickly disappeared again.

Gu Ze eyed Meng Fu from head to toe, then his eyes paused on the streak of blood on the sheets for a few seconds. Then, he turned to walk away. Still, when he opened the door, he still turned back and jibed, “If it hurts, go see a doctor.”

The sound of the door closing was crisp and decisive.

Meng Fu still did not move—it hurt so much that he couldn’t. He was still in shock at what happened. He didn’t even feel like moving.

Then, the door opened again. Perhaps because his last words made it sound as if he cared, or that he didn’t think it was painful enough, Gu Ze explained, “Oh right, my mistake. There’s no way you could see a doctor with an injury like that, right?”

After a long, long time, the cramped room finally fell silent, but the faint smell of blood still lingered. Meng Fu tried to move, but a searing pain came from behind.

It hurt. It was the kind of pain he was most afraid of.

He wanted to take a shower to flush out what that man left inside his body. Meng Fu finally managed to sit up and get his feet on the crooked slippers under the bed, but as soon as he stood up, his feet buckled under him and he fell back to the bed.

“It’s okay, Meng Fu. It doesn’t hurt. This is nothing, it’s just karma.” He tried to comfort himself, but it sounded more like self-mockery.

Naked, he shuffled step by step to the living room, propping himself up by the wall. Before he could get into the shower, the doorbell rang.

It was like thunder crashing into his mind. Was it Gu Ze? What was he doing here? Did he think he hadn’t hurt him enough so he was back for more? How else did he want to humiliate him?